Words are mean many things at once

Epilogue

2012-01-14T01:57:00.000+08:00

Here's to the end of this blog.

Adieu.

xoxo,

Fang

2011-11-08T23:26:00.001+08:00

I could have done alot of things with the time given. Why did I even waste my time on this?
Things that could be done when I am free. I hate you, woman.

2011-10-17T15:50:00.000+08:00

Continuously making a fool out of herself. What a disgrace! No medicine could save her foolish self. Making her way to her doom. There was only one path in her life, the path to the abyss. A pit hole of her sins. Ceaseless attempts to escape from life; yet failed. Only echoes of her shadow screaming bout death. Over and over. Resounding sound of death. Fear. Agony. There is no escape. No more possibilities. The end is near. Where is hope in times of need? She lost it. She had it but foolishly lost it on her journey to finding herself. No seriously, unless the foolish jester make ceaseless attempts to recover her lost self and hope itself; there is no future for her. All's but a bleak , bleak filled with sorrow dream. Wake up! You can't stay asleep, dreaming of death anymore. Stand up! Open your eyes. Your surrounding. is not empty. Open your eyes and you will see.

Are you awake yet? Do you feel the warmth of others trying to reach your ice cold heart?

Have you forgotten how wonderful life is?

Remember. It's not too late for you.

It's never too late to make an effort.

Are you awake?

Hope is waiting. On the other side of the dream.

2011-10-17T08:05:00.001+08:00

And it just get worse and worse and worse. Bloody shitty useless good-for-nothing shits.

2011-10-11T22:50:00.001+08:00

I have a mind that changes every second. I can't control it.
For example, as much as you're important to me today, you might not be few days later.
Because, I guess it's on auto-defense mode.

:D I ...hate getting hurt. Nothing will last, no matter how much I believe in eternity. SOmeday something will end.
That's why sometimes I would distane myself from others.
Just a few close friends are enough...
But, sometimes, I accidentally let people in, and ... it just grow bigger.
Those who entered never left but I always felt that I have wronged them.

They deserved better. Not a friend like me.
I only cared for myself.

The last time.. ah, I don't give a damn about what happened last time anymore.
Let the pain be forgotten.
;) I am annoying, need aloofness. :D
They won't leave that way.

Anyone can be alone but no one can stand loneliness.

ii JO

2011-10-10T11:55:00.001+08:00

:) I think I'll pass this paper for FA1 .
I know I will!

:) Hah, maa ii.
Time to work on the rest.

I feel it's time to get back to blogging.
Twitter and Tumblr is abit too much :D
Complicated things ain't my forte.

Simple and fine will do.

When will I get over you?

The moment where you were awake...

2011-10-09T19:38:00.001+08:00

Hugging my legs, looking outside the window.
I suddenly realised how big the world is.
It's like for that instant, I was awake.
I remembered. I saw the real me somewhere in this vast land.
What I appear to be right now, was just another mask.

Then, I told myself lots of things,
ways to stay awake.
I need to stop dreaming.

But, just sleeping that night.
I fell asleep again.
In the world of dreams.

Wondering, when I will wake up again and this time, stay that way.
And be myself.

Watching Minami-ke , I started realising the differences and similarities between Kana and I.
One with both parents and one who has none.

2011-10-02T19:28:00.001+08:00

Humans are despicable.

2011-10-01T16:04:00.001+08:00

when it's so painful and unbearable, you cant tell anyone...
you don't know how to, when everything just force you to keep silent.

2011-10-01T01:33:00.000+08:00

I am sorry. I really am. If I were a better friend, I could at the very least prevent this from ever happening.

When did we stop being sisters? I bet you thought of me as one. Only me. Too detached. A fool who cannot separate what's important and what's not. I am sorry I put so many people first before you. I do not know what is important to me anymore. I feel really alone this days. I cannot make myself to create a long conversations with anyone. I do not feel like it.

I am really sorry to you and her.

She stills believe in me, and I am trying to ... return what I owe her. and be a friend for once.

I am always listening to her but no help at all. All I do is wait at the side, listen in silent. Good-for-nothing.

Giving encouraging words which I myself do not tell myself.

Such a hypocrite. All of these is my fault. But I cannot say it to everyone else because they are blaming themselves as well. No one blames me. Too much comfort in life. Making me feel even worse.

If I could be a friend, no one would have to suffer. If I am a robot who can be programmed, I could actually be a friend.

But, I'm only one person. I am sorry.

2011-09-11T00:30:00.001+08:00

All you want to do is bawl.

2011-09-10T01:44:00.001+08:00

I'm not kind.

It merely feels painful, seeing you like that.

Your feelings seem to reach me and my tears flowed.

=/ You deserve to be always happy, my dear Happy.

Ignore those people who do not know you.

They have no right.

The only one who has is yourself.

Believe me when I say you are a beautiful person.

I hope you have a sweet dream and a good rest tonight.

Hopefully, your tomorrow would be a great one.

♛

2011-09-07T09:48:00.003+08:00

Coming to a point where you wished you're dead.

2011-09-07T09:46:00.002+08:00

finally an update!

This woman has finally turned 18. :]

❥ Our dear omma!

Thanks for your love.

We love you too~

Always be happy, my dear.

(¯`•.•´¯) (¯`•.•´¯)
*`•.¸(¯`•.•´¯)¸.•´ ♥
☆ ♥ `•.¸.•´ ♥ º ☆.¸¸.•´¯`♥

I-I love you like a love song, baby!

How do you expect me to remember your birthday, when you never look any older?

Okay, back to the main point.

Thank you for always being a good friend ~

I love you the way you are .
Happy Birthday ~

Always smile, not frown.

Or I will tickle you !

Let us celebrate the occasion with wine and sweet words.

:D YOU ARE ONE AMAZING PERSON AND I HOPE YOU WILL STAY THAT WAY.

2011-08-31T18:39:00.001+08:00

rainbownyx,



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Story: Froggy in Distress 

Chapter: 1. Chapter 1



From: YumeHime ()

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ah, finally got the time to sit down and read. carefully XD

Tuna has really got a talent for writing~ 8D

Nice job~ wb

Though Yume though she'd enjoy it more if you've delved more into detail,

maybe split it into another chapter, or lengthening it :3

Add more portray into their thoughts and emotions. :D





The action here ish great~ keep up the great work~ wb

2011-08-31T18:03:00.001+08:00

And you just want to disappear.

2011-08-27T03:05:00.000+08:00

私は木になりたかたよ。

2011-08-26T23:58:00.000+08:00

Tonight was a wonderful night.
As I was able to share and receive views on a certain sexuality discussion.

This might be weird of me but I supported yaoi and yuri.
It's not big deal at all. Even though those aren't my forte.

:]

Hardly anyone seen me share my opinions with passion! :D
Yeap, infront of the screen, I can be anyone.

:] My talents are wasted in real.
HAHAHHA ;D

It doesn't come in handy in real life.
;w;

2011-08-26T12:21:00.000+08:00

How do you expect me to accept something like that,
especially when I know the things I would receive upon accepting that.

-.- MY SHOES. PUT YOURSELF IN MY SHOES.

Then again, how would they be able to?
It's a really difficult thing after all.

Bloody shit.

2011-08-26T04:07:00.003+08:00

But, then again, It's my fault.

2011-08-26T00:09:00.000+08:00

My dearest's birthday is arriving.

Dearest in her PJS.LMFAO

No matter where we are,
No matter how far we are from each other,
No matter how long we never speak or even meet with each other,
No matter how long time has pass,
No matter what happens to either of us,
No matter if we no longer has anything to say to each other,

remember that I will always ♥ you,
my dearest, Cheh Wai Yen. :]

xoxo ♥

2011-08-24T23:32:00.001+08:00

My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you.

2011-08-24T00:24:00.000+08:00

Aye, hating on myself.
Such a coward.
Why aren't I once bitten twice shy?

Why exists such sites?
I going to grow a trauma of entering korean sites.
Creepy stuffs. ):

2011-08-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

Again and again.
When will I find inner peace?
Where will I find inner peace?
How will I find inner peace?

..What is inner peace?
Why should I find inner peace in the first place?

Again and again I get further away from what I want.

2011-08-23T01:20:00.000+08:00

fear of emotional attachement.

The only thing that I do when I'm stuck in the situation is to think of everything the situation brings, everything my choices would bring.

I'm not doing it for anyone. Because I tend to think too much.
Just too much, for my own sake. People may think I'm thinking on their behalf or something along the lines.
But, truth is,I'm just not that kind. Everything I do, I do it for the sake of a life with no troubles. I hate problems. They make my life miserable. I have the tendency to choose the best solution to a problem, the best way to return to my normal life.

I pretend a lot. To live peacefully.
That's way, in some sense, I'm not the same with everyone else.
Painted white black sheep.

Bungaku shoujo to shi ni tagari no bouke .
I could relate.

2011-08-22T06:47:00.000+08:00

Good morning bloggie.

:D I figured I should update regularly.

At the very least, people would know what I'm up to.

Leaving people hanging isn't a good habit.

2011-08-22T01:17:00.001+08:00

I don't like how people like to imply things .

It's not like my world revolves round them.

Seriously, get off my back.

I'm so sick of your assumptions.

2011-08-14T01:38:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I don't hate 07-Ghost .

I dropped it after 2nd-3rd episode even when my friends love that show.

Seriously, it was weird.

I almost felt unbearable to keep watching.

Teito ... is cool to me and all. I guess can't bring myself to watch it.

Something... just stop me.

I forced myself to watch it.

Possibly it was episode 20?

But, I.. haven't finished that episode.

I watched half and just... =/

ラグスの鎮魂歌

Through the stars through the snow through the memories
(You) search for your footprints
somehow in this tranquil eternity
This place is in the midst of dreams

You run up the slope with your fledgling wings
Straying from the path with this sealed eye

Through the stars through the snow through the memories
(You) search for your footprints
somehow in this tranquil eternity
This place is in the midst of dreams

Someday everything will return to what it was
The one place at the top of the sky
is peacefully waiting for you,
trusting the future after the light in good hands

You run up the slope with your fledgling wings
Straying from the path with this sealed eye

Through dreams through love through the heart
(You) search for your footprints
Leaving behind the eternal light
on steady wings

To you, eternal love will

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2011-08-02T01:03:00.000+08:00

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I remembered crying to the manga chapters of this episode. xD

2011-07-31T00:14:00.000+08:00

I went out the whole day.
Spent half of the day sweating in a badminton court.
So bloody bored.
I need my hikki lifestyle back. HAHHAH ;D

And party in Sk's House.

I saw them. ._.
Those feelings.
The uneasiness.
The lil butterflies.
Like wtf.

:D Atleast I controlled myself.

2011-07-29T09:45:00.001+08:00

Story Progress
Title : YET TO BE NAMED
· CHAPTER 0 – Prologue 397 words
· CHAPTER I – Revenge 18 words
· CHAPTER II – Demon 65 words
· CHAPTER III – Awakening 347 words
· CHAPTER IV – Betrayal 1850 words
· CHAPTER V – Nightmare 0 words
· CHAPTER VI – Friend 0 words
· CHAPTER VII – Hell 0 words
· CHAPTER VIII – Thirteenth 0 words
· CHAPTER VIIII - Epilogue 0 words

WHYYY T^^T

2NE1 - UGLY [HD]

2011-07-28T03:39:00.000+08:00

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2011-07-28T00:17:00.000+08:00

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#23 - Top Favorited (Today)

#4 - Top Favorited (Today) - Music

#2 - Top Favorited (Today) - South Korea

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#25 - Top Rated (Today)

#3 - Top Rated (Today) - Music

#1 - Top Rated (Today) - South Korea

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2011-07-28T00:14:00.002+08:00

I believe that strong friendships will stay; despite the distance and all. If both parties believe, they'd be best-friends forever. That's why I can just do my own things, spend time alone without worrying that any friendships of mine will loosen.
Yet, I can't help to think that for others I'm just 'bored and tired' of them.So not true. sigh.

2011-07-27T18:57:00.000+08:00

I never knew that.
So, is this how far you can go ?
Is this how much your loyalty is worth ?
Heck.
I thought you knew what you're doing.
It's not good to always stay fallen when you trip.

2011-07-27T18:05:00.001+08:00

This reminds me.
I told reika bout the victim act.
:/

2011-07-27T09:35:00.000+08:00

"Persona 4 The Animation" Trailer Streamed, Theme Songs Announced, and More

It's on my watch list.

Remind her to finish watching the Persona [TV] ...

Oh damn. Sheesh.

2011-07-27T03:50:00.000+08:00

..mamoru..

Guimauve

“The French were the first to make a marshmallow closely resembling what we eat today. It was made from sugar, eggs, and the mallow plant’s jelly-like extract, beaten together to a foam. They called it pâté de guimauve, or guimauve for short—pâté meaning “paste” and guimauve being the French botanical name for the mallow plant”

Anyways, regarding Blood-C .

Since I'm CLAMPTAKU , I was really looking forward to this.

All I felt was D:

Still, I'm not going to drop it.

I'm watching it till the end.

2011-07-27T00:31:00.000+08:00

I feel the need to be different.
Other people might like it when people follow // learn from them,
but I don't.

._. It only feels like you're intruding my private life.

2011-07-23T01:29:00.002+08:00

"What's your problem?"

You really wanna know?
YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW?

=w=

2011-07-22T17:06:00.001+08:00

It's not healthy to feel hurt for every single thing.
So, I smile. Like a ignorant fool.
I feign ignorance for thy internal pain people caused.

2011-07-22T01:23:00.000+08:00

Title : Turning Tables
Original Artist : Adele
Cover : Gwyneth Paltrow

Close enough to start a war
All that I have is on the floor
God only knows what we're fighting for
All that I say, you always say more

I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb, I can't breathe

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me
No, I won't ask you, you to just desert me
I cant give you, what you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables

Under harder skies I see ooh
Where love is lost, your ghost is found
I've lived a hundred storms to leave you
As hard as you try, no I will never be knocked down

I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb, I can't breathe

So I won't let you close enough to hurt me, no

I won't ask you, you to just desert me
I cant give you, what you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
Turning tables

Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
And if I'm the cause for me
Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
Standing on my own two feet

I won't let you close enough to hurt me, no
I won't ask you, you to just desert me
I cant give you, what you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables
Turning tables, yeah
Turning ohh

2011-07-21T00:15:00.000+08:00

"IF I HAD A WORLD OF MY OWN, EVERYTHING WOULD BE NONSENSE. NOTHING WOULD BE WHAT IT IS, BECAUSE EVERYTHING WOULD BE WHAT IT ISN'T. AND CONTRARY WISE, WHAT IS, IT WOULDN'T BE. AND WHAT IT WOULDN'T BE, IT WOULD. YOU SEE?"
- Lewis Carroll

:D I am filled with nonsense.

2011-07-21T00:05:00.000+08:00

Still a pale color matching the background.

:D Werid. Simple werid.
But, it's like that.

I noticed this for many years now.

I lack something.

:D wait, many things.

2011-07-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

I don't want to get too close.
Yet, I don't want to get too far away.

I always thought friends are .
There - Even if they are not always there, they're there.

._. I really adore my friends.
Well, it's like I can't prove it in any ways.
There's no way I can.
I just do.
o.o

I will be there.

But. I'm always scared.

:O At home, I feel safe and all.
But, it sucks.
When a friend leaves me,
I leave myself more.

o.o Even though I always say // mention every thing that I dislike that happened to me, in such a bloody carefree manner.
Sometimes, I wonder if anyone realize I feel pain too.
Like, o.o I get broken so easily, it gets so easy to become a person who is cold . aloof. A person with no pain. A person who doesn't get hurt. A person who don't care. A person who doesn't even try. A person who only cares about herself. A person in many ways .

A bloody hypocrite. :D
I became so masochistic and sadistic.

Despite the ugly thing I have become, I still love my friends.
Even if I love running away from my problems,
I won't run away from my friend's problem.
I will help if my friends need me.
If my friends don't need me, then they don't.

There is all there is to it.
I will accept every word everyone has to say.

2011-07-20T23:04:00.000+08:00

o.o There but not there.
It's like a color matching the background.
Being you , the simple one.
Seems like the other you is brighter than simple you.
Yet, it's still kind of not there.
It's like hmmm. I don't know.
Who am I? o.o

2011-07-15T01:11:00.002+08:00

Verse 1:

Skies are crying

I am watching

Catching teardrops in my hands

Only silence, as it's ending

Like we never had a chance

Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?

Chorus:

You can take everything I have

You can break everything I am

Like I'm made of glass

Like I'm of paper

Go on and try to tear me down

I'll be rising from the ground

Like a skyscraper

Like a skyscraper

Verse 2:

As the smoke clears

I awaken and untangle you from me

Would it make feel better

To watch me while I bleed

All my windows, still are broken

But I'm standing on my feet

Chorus:

You can take everything I have

You can break everything I am

Like I'm made of glass

Like I'm of paper

Go on and try to tear me down

I'll be rising from the ground

Like a skyscraper

Like a skyscraper

Bridge:

Go run, run, run

I'm gonna stay right here

Watch you disappear

Go run run run

Yeah its a long way down

But I'm closer to clouds up here

Chorus:

You can take everything I have

You can break everything I am

Like I'm made of glass

Like I'm of paper

Go on and try to tear me down

I'll be rising from the ground

Like a skyscraper

Like a skyscraper

Like a skyscraper

Like a skyscraper

Like a skyscraper

2011-07-13T11:57:00.000+08:00

Good bloody morning world. :)

2011-07-12T22:11:00.000+08:00

Be happy for once!♥

Hey you..

2011-07-12T20:54:00.000+08:00

Do you have the feeling?
That you're all alone
Giving up on your own dreams
Hiding in the background
Holding back your thoughts
Cause whose gonna listen?
Hiding behind a half smile.

~~College.Friends.Family.Life. EQUALS weeee~~~

2011-07-12T20:23:00.002+08:00

The moment I entered grade 7, I knew.
I knew that I will never be a good friend, a good daughter, a good sister.

I can't live a day without hurting someone.
My childhood was based on naivety.

:] I once had a wish. Only wish.
A wish that will never come true.
Because my person itself is the obstacle.
Why? Cause I live my life hurting people .
Cause I live my life on my own principles and interests.

I will never be sad of my own actions.
Only the effects of my actions.
The effects they have on peoples' emotions.

I hurt my friends. Over and over again.
Some would have gone somewhere.
Never to return.
Some would stay and accept the person I really am.

Truth is, I lack the things a normal person should have.
For I am deranged // which is fine.
I would view things differently.
The values of feelings and approach is different.
Indifferent.

Humans will never stop protecting themselves.
their self-interests.

I've never seen too much of pure intentions.

2011-07-12T20:07:00.000+08:00

Do you like the feeling where someone shares his/her secret??

I do. It feels like I'm part of something.

I meant something. I'm a friend.

chew ♥

2011-07-12T18:35:00.003+08:00

Today's a very special day for this girl.

:) Awesome ~~beer-drinking~~ girl with a cute doggie. ♥

I love you!

Chew Kersheen

Happy Sweet 18, my dear. :)

That girl ..

2011-07-12T18:25:00.000+08:00

I love her. :)
She's like the most awesome best friend ever.
She always knew the truth about me , something no one would ever be able to guess.

I know I have issues.
Because of these, I don't dare to face her.
I wanted to fleeeeee than to confront her.
She came to me. :D
We had a talk.

And ... my mind went click.
:) I accept what I've been trying so hard to deny.

We don't always have to spend time together and stuffs,
when we talk, we'll as close like ever ~

:D She's like superwoman.

Hah. A person I hate to lose.

I don't care who you are, friend or foe,
you hurt her, I'll punch you. *w*

Distance hurts as much as being close...

2011-07-11T00:50:00.000+08:00

was mad with anger
was figuring out why i was so angry
disappointed // empty
wondering what i meant to them
it doesn't seem to matter if i am not around
i like to be mad
i like to cry
distance is so fine
:)

Bad Apple!!

2011-07-10T16:07:00.002+08:00

Bad Apple!!
Vocals: nomico
Lyrics: Haruka
Arrangement: Minoshima Masayoshi
Adapted from Touhou ~Lotus Land Story: Bad Apple!!

Even if I’m in the midst of flowing time, I feel languid, look, spinning around and around
I can’t even see my heart that leaves me; didn’t you know that?

Unable to move myself away, I continue to be washed down the cracks of time
I don’t know about my surroundings; I am who I am, that’s it

Am I dreaming? I don’t see anything? Is it a waste to even say my own words?
I’m just tired of grieving; I should spend my time without feeling anything

Even if I’m given the words I’m at a loss for, my own heart is gone in the sky above
If I move myself away, if I change everything, I’ll turn it all black

Does a future exist for someone like me? Do I exist in a world like this?
Is it painful now? Is it sad now? While I still don’t even understand myself

I’m just tired of even walking; I don’t even get to know about other people
If someone like me can change, if I can change, will I turn white?

Even if I’m in the midst of flowing time, I feel languid, look, spinning around and around
I can’t even see my heart that leaves me; didn’t you know that?

Unable to move myself away, I continue to be washed down the cracks of time
I don’t know about my surroundings; I am who I am, that’s it?

Am I dreaming? I don’t see anything? Is it a waste to even say my own words?
I’m just tired of grieving; I should spend my time without feeling anything

Even if I’m given the words I’m at a loss for, my own heart is gone in the sky above
If I move myself away, if I change everything, I’ll turn it all black

Does a future exist in wasted time? Do I exist at a place like this?
If I want to talk about me, if I make myself heard, I’ll say I’m “good-for-nothing”

Do I exist at a place like this? Do I exist at a time like this?
If someone like me can change, if I can change, will I turn white?

Am I dreaming? I don’t see anything? Is it a waste to even say my own words?
I’m just tired of grieving; I should spend my time without feeling anything

Even if I’m given the words I’m at a loss for, my own heart is gone in the sky above
If I move myself away, if I change everything, I’ll turn it all black

If I move, if I move, I’ll destroy everything, I’ll destroy everything
If I grieve, if I grieve, can my heart turn white?

I still don’t know about you, about myself, about everything
If I’ve opened my heavy eyelids, if I destroy everything, then turn black!!!

Bad Apple!!
Vocals: nomico

Nagareteku toki no naka de de mo kedarusa ga hora guruguru mawatte
Watashi kara hanareru kokoro mo mienai wa sou shiranai?

Jibun kara ugoku koto mo naku toki no sukima ni nagasaretsuzukete
Shiranai wa mawari no koto nado watashi wa watashi sore dake

Yume miteru? Nani mo mitenai? Kataru mo muda na jibun no kotoba?
Kanashimu nante tsukareru dake yo nani mo kanjizu sugoseba ii no

Tomadou kotoba ataerarete mo jibun no kokoro tada uwa no sora
Moshi watashi kara ugoku no naraba subete kaeru no nara kuro ni suru

Konna jibun ni mirai wa aru no? Konna sekai ni watashi wa iru no?
Ima setsunai no? Ima kanashii no? Jibun no koto mo wakaranai mama

Ayumu koto sae tsukareru dake yo hito no koto nado shiri mo shinai wa
Konna watashi mo kawareru no nara moshi kawareru no nara shiro ni naru?

Nagareteku toki no naka de de mo kedarusa ga hora guruguru mawatte
Watashi kara hanareru kokoro mo mienai wa sou shiranai?

Jibun kara ugoku koto mo naku toki no sukima ni nagasaretsuzukete
Shiranai wa mawari no koto nado watashi wa watashi sore dake?

Yume miteru? Nani mo mitenai? Kataru mo muda na jibun no kotoba?
Kanashimu nante tsukareru dake yo nani mo kanjizu sugoseba ii no

Tomadou kotoba ataerarete mo jibun no kokoro tada uwa no sora
Moshi watashi kara ugoku no naraba subete kaeru no nara kuro ni suru

Muda na jikan ni mirai wa aru no? Konna tokoro ni watashi wa iru no?
Watashi no koto o iitai naraba kotoba ni suru no nara “roku de nashi”

Konna tokoro ni watashi wa iru no? Konna jikan ni watashi wa iru no?
Konna watashi mo kawareru no nara moshi kawareru no nara shiro ni naru?

Ima yume miteru? Nani mo mitenai? Kataru mo muda na jibun no kotoba?
Kanashimu nante tsukareru dake yo nani mo kanjizu sugoseba ii no

Tomadou kotoba ataerarete mo jibun no kokoro tada uwa no sora
Moshi watashi kara ugoku no naraba subete kaeru no nara kuro ni suru

Ugoku no naraba ugoku no naraba subete kowasu wa subete kowasu wa
Kanashimu naraba kanashimu naraba watashi no kokoro shiroku kawareru?

Anata no koto mo watashi no koto mo subete no koto mo mada shiranai no
Omoi mabuta o aketa no naraba subete kowasu no nara kuro ni nare!!!

Such were my words... left unheard.

2011-07-10T16:05:00.002+08:00

I'll appreciate it if ;
a) My friends won't involve my family in my mess.
b) My family won't involve my friends in my mess.

:D There is a fine line between friends and family.
If anyone cross it, well, I'll rage. :D
Like a mad whore. :D
Peace. :D

2011-07-04T02:46:00.001+08:00

o.o I know I look like a fool who cannot shed tears in your eyes.
That's why you can write those words.

102 ; Just do whatever that makes you happy.

2011-07-04T02:42:00.000+08:00

I don't know why.
I don't know how.

When will people think of my feelings when they hurt themselves?

O: I'm not as cold as you think I am.
I am really weak, no matter how many times I pretend to be not.
I may look strong. I am strong. I am strong.

I wanna be strong was all I could think of during my younger days.

How can people assume things and say hurtful things without thinking about how I would feel? ._. I guess no one knows me behind this mask I put on.

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Humans . are all the same. Yes, I'm the same with everyone else.
Selfish, quick to assume things.

For me, distance is a necessity.
I am not comfortable being bind.
Free to live. I would be fine.
Even by myself.

Everyone will leave one day.
It's a fact. I accept.

I accept everything as it is.
No one shall every see pain in my eyes. :DDDDDDD

101st ; Life is a journey I wanna keep going......

2011-06-30T21:26:00.000+08:00

No matter what.
keep moving on. no matter what.
losing parts of yourself is no big deal.
you just gotta find new ones in that journey. :)

I wasn't planning to blog but I suddenly got the urge to.
Perhaps I really am easily influenced.
:] well, I wouldn't be a pushover then.

Heh. :) Unrestricted . Imagination knows no limit.
Yet, there's some things that's will never change.
My blog posts are always so mixed up.
:B maybe I just don't wanna explain the whole thing.

:] For fear runs my life.
perhaps someday, someone could understand.

Perhaps not.
But, it's okay. :)
As long as I'm accepted as I am.
I'm good.
:)

Well then.
My blog posts are always filled with crap.
Which may or may not be interpreted correctly.

tsktsk. :)

I really don't like misunderstandings. :B

The fool's back..

2011-06-04T19:04:00.000+08:00

Heyyyy. :P FOOL'S HERE.

Went KLCC, bought some stuffs...

I dislike the lift. Like effingly seriously.
I wished I never wore my new sneakers there.
=w= sighh..

Perhaps having korean food tomorrow.
I feel lazy to go college.
:@

Haven't started doing my assignment.
I guess my motivation is gone.
:) Beginning > Hardworking.
That's me. :D

Fuuuuuuuu~ Take a deep breath.

You're amazing, no matter how many times you make me trip.
>:C HMMMM!!!

2011-06-02T14:58:00.000+08:00

It hurts right to the core when you said ..... that..
If I was insincere , I wouldn't even be bothered to reply.
qwpofuwiofuroiqweuofiwerjfehguiefge.
Heck, I hate insincere ppl and you think I'm one of those people? ..

............ Do you even trust me?

._. I think I just broke the pipe.
The water is dripping........................
dripping.........................

O_O I always known that I'm a fool. Now, I know I was a bigger fool than I thought I am.

31/5/2011

2011-06-01T17:12:00.001+08:00

I cut my hair and straightened it.

Let all bad memories went with all the hair I lost.

:]

Time for new memories. :D

A lil update...

2011-06-01T17:11:00.000+08:00

Well, had my mid term last week.
=/ Always get so upset during exam weeks...
Sigh. On the last day... We went to 1U , sadly I couldn't stay late and watch Kungfu Panda with that...
I don't really care bout movies... Just wanted to hang out..
But, the problem with staying so far...
No matter who asked me to stay ... not even ... Even if I wished to stay .. I can't. :@

~~Missed an chance .~~
But I believe that chances are made by myself, so ... well, I'll make another chance. :P

I hang out with my old friends on the 5/29/2011 .
:D Had Bah Kut Teh@KK , aka My dad's fav bah kut teh place. :P , with yen, ken and kit. :)
=w= Those two guys, I will slap them one of these days.

Then we went to Ken's hse for awhile... >_> Get their stuffs and left for badminton court..
Me and Yen rotted there with IPAD 2. Luckily she brought it or we'll die there.
=/ wasted sweat and time there for those two morons.

Then Kit dropped/kicked me off to May Woon's house where the later goes dating with Yen. XD
I played with May Woon's FB and the electric piano. :]

Then Kit returned with Yen, CK and Vynn Szen.
Leaving with them, me and May Woon ... Lunch@BBQ Plaza.
:]
GOING TO SLAP EVERYONE ONE DAY.

KTV@GREENBOX FOR the longest time till I croak/ :@
Leaving for I-City , we had trouble with directions.
But we leave for BKT Tinggi just as fast . XD

:) Dinner@Kaya before I went back home.

Namida ga tomaranai . . .

2011-05-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

Nobody really cares if you’re miserable, so you might as well be happy.

I don't know. Being miserable is such sweet sorrow when no one cares. Such sweet bother when someone actually does. *scratches head*

The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy.

It seems to get thinner these days, I thought I grew stronger. But, I also grew sadder. Then again, I grew happier as well. :D

People are always telling me to smile, like smiling is going to just take away all the hurt and pain.

The thing called life

2011-05-24T20:23:00.000+08:00

Is a gift.
Only if the surrounding people aren't give you shits.
=__= fark.

ORE...

2011-05-20T19:11:00.000+08:00

I was hoping it would not turn out this way.

I was hoping for a perfectly normal one.

i guess i was never cut out for normal life.

even so, sourire. :)

Izumademo. :D

No matter what others say.

No matter what others think.

No matter what you say.

No matter what you think.

This is who I am.

Easily broken, easily remade, easily i accept.

betrayal is nothing but a tease.

=] sourire.

母の日おめでとう ~

2011-05-08T21:25:00.000+08:00

Hello . Today's Mothers' Day.

The end. LOL. ._.
To show some respect I really need to write something...
Something meaningful..... and short. HHAHAHAHA :D

I am a sad person. who hates humans in general. :P
And well, I don't like human relations and the fucking annoying word, 'L-A-M-E' .
HAHHAHAHAHAH :))

My grandmother is the strongest person I ever known. :)
She deserves the best! ._.
efffing shits around her should just go find something else to do.

Mothers are awesome creatures.
Please respect them.

`fang

It would have been better for you...

2011-05-04T09:54:00.001+08:00

If I am not born.
If I am not related to you.
If I am living away from you.

Should we just give up?
Just let me rot alone.

._.

!@#$%^&* ...

2011-04-26T16:49:00.000+08:00

To have someone to worry about you...
Makes you feel like you're weaker and more helpless than you already are.
You always knew you were weak but you wanted to be strong.
You always put a strong front, always telling yourself you are strong.
And to have all that effort turned to dust when someone worries about you.

You are just being yourself.
You did nothing.
Yet, you feel guilty because someone worries about you.

Seems like, the pain and guilt is wrecking your heart.

I had a nice time with microeconomics.
Sorry that I turned out to be a sadist.
Wait, I am one. Yes, a M and S one.

`fang

今日は父の誕生日です。

2011-04-26T00:38:00.001+08:00

Compared to anyone I ever known, he supported me the most.
He accepted me more than she would for what I was not.

:0 He is the kindest and most generous person in my life.
Whatever happens, he would be right behind us.

To care, to support and to love and cherish us. Always.

A person whose kindest and generosity would make us cry .
Though he doesn't understand me, yet he knows. What is best.

:) I would love you always. Now and forever more.
To repay and to love you,
あなたを愛しています。

`fang

Did I do something to you?

2011-04-26T00:27:00.000+08:00

No , obviously.
I have nothing against you , even though you can be a bit irritating.
I did nothing.
This is ridiculously stupid, y'know?
To send me a note which kind of ticks me off.
I don't owe you anything.
You have no right to say things about me when I did naught on you.

-.- I shall live as I wish and you live as you wish.
It's never my place to judge you nor yours to judge mine.

Just, live and let live okay?

`fang

Today was nice....

2011-04-25T17:34:00.000+08:00

Well, in fact it's just a little bit hyper.
Ah, is my old self returning? :D
Though I feel the need to control the amount of statuses I post in FB.

If there is anything I should just post them here. :)
Then, I won't be like speechless. HAAAAAAAA.
Twitter is just a little to troublesome right now. :(
Though I like twitting. Saddening.

Haiii, we celebrated L's birthday in Wong Kok.
생일축하합니다
생일축하합니다
생일축하합니다
생일축하합니다 ~ :D

Otanjobi omedetou gozaimasu , L-kun ~ KAKKAKAKAKKA :D

:)
`fang

I'm a stupid liar...

2011-04-24T22:06:00.000+08:00

Ahhhh, geez. ._. seriously, what am I up to?
Sigh, there are some things or people ... getting on my nerves.
Yet, I never was the one to judge or to confront...
Pretending to be not bothered...
I'm always like this ...
People don't change.
Well, I don't change.

World is not what it seems to be.
Why? Because it is fair.
For people to try to disrupt it, nothing good ever comes from that.

:( What may seem unfair to you , is fair for others.

So, whatever happens to me, even if bad stuffs happen more than good stuffs, this , my friend,
is the fairest thing in the world. :(
`fang

My favorite composer of all times...

2011-04-24T14:58:00.002+08:00

Rant of the day ...

2011-04-24T12:54:00.001+08:00

This picture made me ill.
I found it after reading Chyi's blog. :(
This really upsets me.
This is stupid.

What if ... some 'itchy' stranger breaks you and the person you're in relationship up?
Break you guys inside out.

Damn. Horrible. Horrible. This is human.
Is this the human being I hate so much?
Ah, why is humans... ?

Writing of this type of shit really wastes time.
But, I don't mind. I never did.

Okay, what should I do today?
Portfolio? Nay, I should relax a bit before reviewing Microeconomics Chapter 3.
:)

Continues to rant about some stuffs.
Is it always my fault?
Yes.
Is it always wrong for me to have a say in things?
Yes.
I can't say what I want and I always feel everything's my fault.
I'm such a strange person. A person . who will never change.
A person who would be never be great in something.
Average. I do not hate. I dislike and forget.
Nothing in this world is worth my hating.

People hate easily. People love easily.
Yet, for me, those are the hardest things I could do.
I feel that it's wrong to hate and love deeply.
What the hell is hate and what the hell is love.
I might crush. I might dislike. I might think of you.
But never for too long , for that isn't what I do.
Everything about this land is strange.

All I care about is to live. Live without bounds, without chains.
I am not free. I am not happy.
I might smile. I might laugh.
But at the end of the day, it fades.
For everything is nothing. Nothing but a fleeting dream.

While everything and everyone changes, I would stay the same.
For I know not what change is.
I only know of moving on to tomorrow.
Till the end of time, I shall be moving.
Chasing after a single shadow.
For whose shadow, I wonder.
Never to be known, never to be heard.

`fang

When it comes to myself ...

2011-04-23T19:15:00.000+08:00

I am pretty useless.

I can do better for others than to myself.

:( Is it connected to the wish I had when I was younger?

Though it's a pretty hard a wish to come true.

As there's no way everyone can be happy.

There's always someone unhappy when someone else is happy.

That is the way of life.

Well, that is what I believe about this world I'm staying in.

An effort that is fruitful only when it is meant for others.

For myself, I must try twice as hard.

I can blame no one but myself.

Because this is the way the world is.

Good or bad, there is a balance.

No matter what...

The world isn't unfair.

Because it is fair , you can feel as much happiness as you can feel of sadness.

Wait, I was supposed to rant on my progress on the MS Portfolio and I ended up talking about my beliefs.

Well, now you know why I am not religious .

The way I think of this world is my guide to moving on.

My guide to forgive . My guide to be silent.

Back to my progress.

It's like a bit here and there.

I hope I can finish the introductory part tonight.

Well, not entirely but at least everything on it is covered.

Then, I could at least discuss what I did with my group mates.

Well, back to work. :D

`fang

What a day...

2011-04-22T13:49:00.000+08:00

Hopefully I can start using my own textbooks starting from next week. :(

I went to 1utama with my college mates last wednesday for RIO.
HAHHAHAHA, I laughed and cried. Though no one really saw my tears since the movie was too 'captivating' . ;p

Yeah, I know. I cry for every single sad scene. T___T This is another trait of mine that would never go off.

): I'm really sorry for all the inconveniences I caused everyone.
I'm always like this. I'm sorry. =<

I wish college is nearer to my home. :(

My sister's exam's starts next thursday...
:( ah, I really can't help people. And yet, I always needed help from others.
Whether intentionally or not, I can't seem to live without depending on others.

:< Without a doubt, I'm odd. Bouke. :o

Sigh, I really think too much and just stress myself out.
Oh geez, how can I make a decision this way?

Peace,
`fang

Is this a new beginning or just another ending?

2011-04-19T15:51:00.000+08:00

In my life , I have never stop making mistakes.
And I would continue making them in the future.
I can't change that. Nobody can.

I can't please everyone. Not even with all my might.
Because I am not perfect.
But, she doesn't think that way.
She thinks that I'm worse than how a person should be.
For me, the hardest thing for me to do is being a human.
A person she wants be to be is something I can never be.

LALALA~ Anyways , this is like my 2nd... 3rd week. at college.
I think I settled down ... a bit. :D

They are cool people. :D My college mates.
>w< I was worried I was going to be an odd ball.. ~.~;
All well.

`fang

The only problem ...

2011-04-03T21:49:00.000+08:00

is the M.

:( Should I say annoying ? ah, please just leave me alone .

Jo Kwon and Ga In 's WGM CUTS are funny . :D

I'm going to college tomorrow .

I hope I make new friends.

Aha, nothing is too much except M for me to handle.

If I believe I can, then I can.

`fang

La La La ~ Everybody get them high!

2011-04-02T17:42:00.002+08:00

Watched Nineteen 19 Korean Movie.

It's nice. :) VI and TOP is in it. >w< ♥

Makes me wanna reflect on myself. :D

Aha, ♥♥♥♥♥ BIGBANG.

`fang

Missing on FB...

2011-04-02T01:41:00.002+08:00

M.I.A.

OHMYGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Monday's the day where I become a student@KDU.

I'm so nervous. Q__Q

I can't imagine what would happen on Monday.

Gahhhhhhhhh.

April 8 ★ Big Bang Special Edition Album Release ★

That my dear is a MUST buy.

`fang

More than awesome...

2011-03-31T03:08:00.000+08:00

Seriously, I love Big Bang. :D
Not just a part of them, but all 5 of them as a whole.
They make life bearable. ;p

:) Wonderful. Amazing. Incredible.
Heh, I hope of all the artists I ever liked, this will last forever.

And of all Korean Variety Show , I like Strong Heart the most. XD
HEHEHE.

Practically, I'm going to be a KDU student the week after April 4th.
:D I feel nervous and yet excited at the same time.
I'm abit scared of meeting new people though.
I hope I make lots of new friends and new experiences/memories.

I'd always been surrounded by good people.
Even though they are well surrounded by dark-ish rumours etc ,
they have never mistreated me , so I guess I'm a lucky person.

I always feel that no one actually hates me. ;o
Is it because I don't really hate anyone in particular?
Even though I dislike few people etc because they're annoying and stuffs but I never hated anyone.
Well, except for times, (omma) when she really hurt me.

=w= Y'know , my dad is really kind, very giving and has a good heart,
but still I can't really voice out my thoughts to him.
Nor my mom.
I always have hard times communicating with my parents.
I feel that it's hard. :D
And my mom is like the opposite of my dad.
That's why they're made for each other?

=o whatever , I'm ending this post for now.
Stay tuned.

`fang

A smile ...

2011-03-23T18:05:00.000+08:00

is what it takes to makes things which may never be all right just fine. :D

I went to get my results and went to the counselor .
Things is the shit right now. :(

All well.
Smile!

And just like that...

2011-03-18T23:52:00.000+08:00

My days in Singapore ended.
:9 It's barely enough to explore the whole Sentosa.
Maa ii, there's always next time.
I wanna meet Micky Mouse. ):
LOL. While everyone was following Marilyn Monroe [Universal Studio] , she waved at us.
HAH. :D
LOL. okay, enough sweat stuffs. XD
Well, memorable moments are meant to be kept (or forgotten) , not shared. XD [or lazy..]

GUMIsm.
:( Because I'm .... , I download what I don't have. LOL.XD

はて。

2011-03-10T08:53:00.000+08:00

Ah, need drinks.
It's a okay morning. :O
I couldn't sleep. much.

This is one nice song. :D
S.M. The Ballad - 너무 그리워

For some time now,

2011-03-08T19:48:00.006+08:00

and now I return.
To embark on a new journey. :)

Wish me luck.

How long has it been since I stopped blogging?
I thought about it, I figure it's time to start blogging again.
:D

At least i would keep on writing/typing.
:) May this be a way for my fictions to finally reach their ending.

This really caught my attention. kyuu kyuu~ XD
G Dragon : Look Only At Me Part 2

I’m not trying to make sense here
I’m just trying to make things right
I’m not asking, but I’m telling you
Baby listen
Ah ah ah ah I’m sorry girl
All all all all it’s all my greed
Ah ah ah ah I’m sorry girl

Look Only At Me, Part 2

All men are all same but I am different, believe me girl
I am different from those other guys you met
I said with my whole heart that ‘I will only look at you’
There won’t be betrayal in front of love you gave me
Honestly I sometimes waver
But don’t worry it doesn’t go farther
I was just curious of being fluttered from dating for a long time, those small fights

I feel happy when you are next to me so I am not alone
But I feel unnerved and think the past was better sometimes
Although I feel sorry

Chorus:
Don’t ever cheat although I do, baby
Don’t forget about me although I do, lady
Sometimes, I don’t contact you and I drink
And if I met lips with another woman, look only at me

(I am sorry honey, but…)

I delay a date with you today
Once, twice, it became many times already, like a habit (Let’s meet for sure tomorrow)
‘I will do it next time’ ‘I will do better from now on’ but I lie at the last minute
But I can’t help it, I keep lying to you
I know it’s bad, I always feel anxious
No girl girl girl
Everything is my fault, swerved (broken) promises repeat (ah)

(I hope you won’t know about this)

I look for you when I feel lonely and inconvenient
I feel sorry, then it happens soon
You comfort me saying it’s okay to do it when I am foolish

(Repeat Chorus)

I know very well that I only think of myself (Honestly I don’t know well)
You wait for me at the same place everyday, but that’s all baby
I wish you will always have only me
That’s my wish, a man’s hope, honey don’t hate (hate on/cuss at) me
No No…

(Repeat Chorus)

Translation credits to: jeska + gdluvzmc

I shall change...

2010-11-01T01:43:00.000+08:00

Time waits for no one.
If I lose this chance, I will regret for eternity.
Shall I change, for the better future.
I shan't fail.
I won't allow it.
I shall change.

小狼♥，你现在在哪里？

2010-10-15T16:06:00.000+08:00

小狼,我好想念你。 //(ㄒoㄒ)//

嗯，我不知道我的妹妹还有另外一个blog。
SAKURA FST ♥ how to save a life <<-- It's a very cool FST for Sakura <3

Bought DRRR! and Kuroshitsuji II today. Forgot my letter. Screw you! ;A;
Maths paper was fine. I hope I ace it.
-fang

When there was you and me;

2010-10-14T21:22:00.002+08:00

I've been neglecting my blog.
More like every single person in my life.
Well, with exception for those talking to me everyday.
I'm just real insensitive to people as much as I am sensitive.
I just want to let loose.

-fang

Ugly Truth. LOL

2010-09-26T01:42:00.001+08:00

Congrats to the first and last to hear my ugly thoughts. :\
I feel less/more FUGLY now. rofl.
Always holding in my thoughts ain't a healthy think..
But, what people would think when I voice them out.
Are scary. ;w;

Welcome to my ugly world,
Fang. (:

Thumbs up for Orange Waffles and Miranda Cosgrove

2010-09-25T23:30:00.001+08:00

Orange Waffles is love. XDDD
Spent the day sleeping.
Still promising day since I found many orange waffles pictures.
Downloaded Miranda Cosgrove's mini album.
Cool songs. (:
Playing TD now.
If I ever play, that is.
My line sucks.

LOL,
Fang.

..If I must then I must...

2010-09-23T23:15:00.000+08:00

Nothing will ever go your way.
Everything is fated to happen.
I am always... but it's okay.
I must get used to this. :D
If..

LOL,
Fang :)

OH GOSH

2010-09-21T23:39:00.000+08:00

What a day. What did I do today?
Nothing. but FB and erm.. siesta <3
hahhaha.
Time to do maths -.-

LOL,
Fang.

HAPPY WORLD PEACE DAY !!

2010-09-21T09:04:00.000+08:00

I got lazy of roman numbers.

Anways, give peace a chance kay? XD
Oh yea, I remembered.
Peace begins at your dining table :)

LOL, Fang. :)

LVVIII ; I wish life was not that hard even when it's simple...

2010-09-20T23:44:00.000+08:00

Hahaha. (:
Not been updating blog much eh?

I've no idea to blog anyways nowadays.
How am I feeling , that well, I don't feel comfortable talking about it.
HOHOHO. :D But, I can say that I am in a good , not really healthy but still, condition.

I always wanted my self to be different , to be independent.
Because .. I don't know, I felt the need to be different.
But, this have become a problem in .. something. ha.
But, I still have a long way to go, before I can be happy of who I am.
I have to work harder, don't I?
I have wasted alot of time now.
I have to stop being overly-dependent to my friends.

Right.. I am never satisfied with what I do, regardless of what people say.
People praise me, I get a little over the head, only to find .. I'm not worth their compliment XD
People criticize, I get too overly down, disappointed. XD

Anyways, had ayamas.
I thought I missed it. LOL
But, I realised the taste, is abit too much,
not good for health.
wth, when did I ever cared for health.

LOL,
Fang XD

LVVII ; I just remembered.

2010-08-27T01:06:00.000+08:00

With my A-Watch List increasing.
My work pilling up.
Things I need/want do increasing.
I got no time. -__-
Exam is coming.

Card.Bottle.My letter from Rinny yet to receive.Scholastic.

hhaaaa.~ tired.
even when I show no work at all.

Stop slacking off you royal SLOTH.!!!
-fin

LVVI ; Mikuni Shimokawa - Kimi ga Iru Kara

2010-08-24T21:58:00.001+08:00

夢見る瞳に世界は美しく見えたけど
疑うことを覚えて人は臆病になっていくの?
yumemiru hitomi ni sekai ha utsukushi mieta kedo
utagau koto wo oboete hito ha okubyou ni natte iku no?

似たもの同士だよねと笑いあったあの頃
ささいな嘘さえ優しく見逃してくれたよね
nita mono douji dayo ne to warai atta ano koro
sasai na uso sae yasashiku minogashite kureta yo ne
もし二人に帰る場所がなくてもかまわない
私がその笑顔を守るから
moshi futari ni kaeru basho ga nakute mo kamawanai
watashi ga sono egao wo mamoru kara

星の数ほどの出会いや別れや
失いたくないものも全部
なんにもいらないと思えるよ今
ただ君のそばで見つめてたい
喜びも悲しみも何もかも
hoshi no kazu hodo no deai ya wakare ya
ushinaitakunai mono mo zenbu
nanni mo iranai to omoeru yo ima
tada kimi no soba de mitsumetetai
yorokobi mo kanashimi mo nani mo kamo
大人になるたび少しずつ忘れてしまった
いつでも自分の心に素直でいること
otona ni naru tabi sukoshizutsu wasureteshimatta
itsudemo jibun no kokoro ni sunao de iru koto

君からもらった勇気のカケラ
君だけにあげる私の心に咲く花を
kimi kara moratta yuuki no kakera
kimi dake ni ageru watashi no kokoro ni saku hana wo

溢れだす涙が教えてくれた
なくしちゃいけないものは全部
あの頃のまま心の中にある
太陽のような君の笑顔が
こんなにも私のこと強くする
afuredasu namida ga oshiete kureta
nakushicya ikenai mono ha zenbu
ano koro no mama kokoro no naka ni aru
taiyou no you na kimi no egao ga
konna ni mo watashi no koto tsuyoku suru

星の数ほどの出会いや別れや
失いたくないものも全部
なんにもいらないと思えるよ今
ただ君のそばで見つめてたい
喜びも悲しみもすべて
hoshi no kazu hodo no deai ya wakare ya
ushinaitakunai mono mo zenbu
nanni mo iranai to omoeru yo ima
tada kimi no soba de mitsumetetai
yorokobi mo kanashimi mo subete

今からここから始めようよ
二人の明日を始めようよ
生まれたままの気持ちでいようよ
夏風に揺れた花のように
今この一瞬を咲き誇ろう
ima kara koko kara hajimeyou yo
futari no ashita wo hajimeyou yo
umareta mama no kimochi de iyou yo
natsukaze ni yureta hana no you ni
ima kono isshun wo sakihokorou

Disappointed.Scared,but whatever, I'll always do the best I can.
-fin

LVV ; Let it rip,pals.

2010-08-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

MLOA doesn't need us. Let alone caring for her.

Everyone's pissed and hurt.
She's just too absorbed in finding A to realise that people around her is BLOODY RIGHT THERE.
That's way I hate getting close to people.
You only get hurt.
Maintain your walls with peepo , PEEPO.

Being a introvert is not that bad.
Other than being too naive, and trust peepo easily.
But, atleast, you don't have to strike a convo with strings hidden.

I love otaku friends.
When we chat, we don't have string hidden.

Everyone has something they want to keep to themself.
But, they will keep it to themselves, not letting it loose.

I don't understand.
I don't even know who you are anymore.
The one I used to know.
Is gone.
-fin

LVIV ; I've decided...

2010-08-22T23:11:00.002+08:00

I'm moving on, like always, by letting go.
I'm gonna accept everything as it is.
I'm not gonna get affected by anything cause I'm psychotic.
Use and discard.
That is all.
Forget everything and just walk forward.
-fin